I’m majoring in CS related-field, and I used to have tons of passion for it and underlying tech, and worked as full stack dev, but my mind was very different in a good way (better at logical/cognitive demanding tasks, creative, productive, etc). Things happened, and I just can’t stand living in society, experiencing all this materialistic world and feeling sick about it. I’m truly traumatized and I’ve been trying all available means to improve (so I’m not asking what rule 3 is against)… I can’t feel any passion for what I used to do… The meanings I gave for my life and hope are away. I don’t care anymore about digital world, industrialization, I just can’t. So my performance has suffered due to all this.
So, it can sound funny to read this, but I am considering living in a farm I have access to and do my own farming to eat, artesian well for water, constructing just a little home to live… I don’t exactly care about electricity. I would probably be happier just by burning some stuff to have light at night if needed and looking at the stars all alone until death.
What do you all think about this?
This is exactly what we’re planning.
I am done done done with the pressure, the incessant need for connection, only to reach out and find that people on the whole are just fucked up.
Where are the relatively normal people?
The measured people, the people who do not have a insane opinion about guns or politics or how people should live their lives?
Where are the people who know right from wrong? Good from evil?
It’s tiresome. I want to be friends with a donkey, stare at some landscape and see my days out in peace.
I hate to tell you this, my friend, but the rural people have way more problems usually than the people that you’re probably used to. Generally, it’s just easier to hide out there.
This as fuck