For me at least, there’s a pretty significant difference between being in a body i find revolting versus one I don’t. I wanted to live my life as someone I could tolerate, who didn’t make me feel disgusting.

I’m not underselling it, dysphoria is repulsive. I felt like a freak, I felt wrong. I just did whatever I had to do to fix that. Validation wasn’t something I sought as much, it’s certainly nice to be recognized but I transitioned for me first and foremost.

Driving an automatic truck. My car is a manual fiat 500, and I’ve been driving it for a while now and getting used to that. Driving a Nissan titan afterwards feels A) weird, B) wrong C) it’s too big D) where’s the shifter.

I hate it, but because hubs has a truck whenever I drive not my car it’s a nightmare that requires adjustment.

I will say my experience with ketamine and ect were both more distinctly positive than this. ect didn’t last as long, but both made it easier to weather the day and take care if my obligations. Nothing was curative, I still have problems with anhedonia, but they did both help. ECT didn’t help until they were doing it bilaterally with a high level of stimulus for me though. If you aren’t at that level yet, I’d recommend trying a bit longer.

I’ve lived with depression for most of my life, but in the past year or so I finally feel like I’ve started to get a handle on it with treatment. It’s been like the weight I’m dragging just lightened up some. What would break me down before I can weather a bit better now, and it’s not as taxing to just do the basic parts of living. It took trialling a variety of meds, magnets to the head, shocks in the head, and ketamine for me to get to my current stable level, but most people don’t need nearly that much.

I’d say if by the time you’re asked you’re still feeling depressed and you can’t tell if it’s better, its probably not better enough to warrant continuing at the current dose. But! I’m not a doctor, so grain of salt.

Wall decor of a glistening turd

This isn’t Reddit.

You’re getting downvoted for being intentionally stupid.

I just accepted feeling lazy. I’m sitting here waiting for more work to come in an hour into my day right now, just screwing around on piefed. In two hours I’ll have a bit more to do, and then I’ll probably play my drums and mess around on my steam deck some. My boss outright recommended books for downtime, so I don’t even feel bad.

If you’re getting done everything they expect you to and doing it well, there’s no reason to spend all day still not working but sitting anxiously available in your desk chair imo. That’s a good way to drive yourself crazy.

I personally think keeping things that used to be part of someone else is a bit creepy at best. Bones, skin, feathers, fur, it’s all not something I need to have in my home. For example, I saw this guy had turned a family member’s bones into a guitar once and it just squicked me the fuck out.

I would bask in the sun and be threateningly invisibly adorable

Redwall, by Brian Jacques I think. Basically medieval fantasy drama but with woodland animals if I remember properly. I loved the whole series, great books when I was a kid.

Imagine needing that surgery, that really bites

I do all the cooking, he doesn’t know how to prepare anything more complicated than sandwiches

I always give it my best and do a wonderfully mid job

That’s completely fair, I was thinking more of the day in day out torture when I wrote that. My bad.

I’ll give you a nickel if you lick it

I disagree, but i would be happier with better conditions. I still think murder is wrong, and I oppose it, but if you remove the torture aspect I admit you’re doing dramatically less harm.

Animals don’t share our sense of morality and it would be ridiculous to expect them to.

We also don’t typically arrest other species.

Killing animals to eat their flesh. Murder is fucked up, human or not.

Republicans know, that’s part of why he has so much support.