My lease ends today and I’ve had two apartments reject my application. So I’m going to be sleeping in my car with my cats tonight. It’s all pretty surreal. It really can happen to anyone.

I’m good. Trying to figure out which remote part of the world I’d like to visit, maybe stay there.

I had to put my cat down first thing this morning. I’ve come to terms with it but am distracting myself from the need to go home and clean up his things.

Burying myself in my work so I don’t burst into tears every other moment. Grieving the sudden loss of a cat that was my universe for her whole fuzzy diabolical life. It’s been a month, but I knew the second I plucked her from the bushes that she was going to destroy me. We had a good eleven years but fuck, man.
My gf and our surviving cat have been great consolation, but violet had no sense of personal space and I find this void in my orbit to be currently…unbearable.

I finally quit drinking in 2025 and I’m doing it for the long run (thanks to the simple method from Allen Carr).

I’ll quit smoking in February as well.

So I feel very good.

Except that I just read that post https://lemmy.zip/post/30949122 about AI and now I feel beaten and angry.

I hate not having money…

Wondering how long it will take for the world to start world war 3 and which fascist regime were going to be fighting.

Not well. I’m really worried about how the US is sliding down into fascist bullshit.

I have had one of the worst days that I can recall since I left my ex-husband. Woke up early to go to the dentist, they had to numb me which is the worst part IMO. I go home and my mother texts me she’s been in the hospital over 24 hours. I rush to get ready for work and go see her. On my way I hit a crow, it ruins the grill on my VW bug. I get to the hospital and sit with my mom until I have to leave for work. I order a fish sandwich to grab for my dinner and only after getting to my desk at work open my takeout and find they gave me a fried shrimp sandwich instead. My mom lets me know the hospital released her saying they didn’t know what was wrong and prescribed a muscle relaxer. I am a supervisor at work, I had one person call out sick, I’m behind on my duties, and I had a new person start today. Not to mention i started my period last night and was cramping several hours today. the cherry on top was getting the email from credit karma that my score had changed, found it had gone down 30 points because my ex-husband skipped the car payment last month and is now behind 30 days. 🥲 I’m pleading, what have I done to deserve all of this? I hope tomorrow is better, and I hope even more that my mothers health improves.

Ready for the general strike followed by the mass executions of the oligarch class.

Usually takes a couple years for the general public to catch up to where I’m at so biding my time.

I’m angy and my back hurts.

Tired already. Four more years of this shit

Very stressed, too much on my plate, exhausted.

Thanks for asking.

How are you?

I can hardly speak to people anymore. Suppressing my gender for 4 years then finally coming out feels awful. I really thought it would be better. I know my family would have issues but fuck. I have so many thoughts in my head but I can’t get more than a word to two before bursting to tears.
Add on top of that the most stressful school schedule I’ve faced yet and the political climate?

I kinda just want to go to sleep and never wake up to go through more of the same pain the next day.

Stressed as all hell. My job depends on the things Trump is currently trying to block. If that goes, I dunno how to pay the mortgage.

So I’m exhausted, haven’t slept well in a week. Otherwise okay. I’ve got my family and my pets. Friends to play games with.