Completely understandable, considering everything going on, right now. My only argument against that thought, when it crosses my mind, is that’s genuinely how they want you to feel. The bombardment in media of devastating stuff, is planned manipulation, designed to get you to give up hope you can ever resist, and if they make you miserable, they know you’re more compliant. I won’t give them what they want. I will find hope, I will find new ways to enjoy the space I have, regardless of how small they make it. It’s a hard slog, right now.
Oh, I’m right there with you, my friend. Emotional immaturity can and does absolutely make personal growth relfection or change, almost impossible. And a hugely toxic and damaging childhood, for any kids involved.
I’m old now, and I’m going to therapy to try and fix some of the deep deep damage, still there. It’s had a hand in messing up everything in my life, it’s frustrating! The most frustrating thing is, it’s built into the foundations, so you don’t see it till it pops up in terrible ways. It’s like playing whack a mole with a soul infecting virus. I’m focusing really hard on breaking generational traumas being passed down, because they’re like that because their needs weren’t met, also. My biggest fear is becoming them.
For me, it’s a mix of all that (global society and the planet) but also some really difficult health conditions that can only stay the same or get worse.
I do fine day to day, for the most part, because I focus on doing what I can and finding joy where I can. But it doesn’t ultimately make things better for me.
Completely understandable, considering everything going on, right now. My only argument against that thought, when it crosses my mind, is that’s genuinely how they want you to feel. The bombardment in media of devastating stuff, is planned manipulation, designed to get you to give up hope you can ever resist, and if they make you miserable, they know you’re more compliant. I won’t give them what they want. I will find hope, I will find new ways to enjoy the space I have, regardless of how small they make it. It’s a hard slog, right now.
My parents did way more damage than any propaganda machine in breaking me. It’s always your own family determining your own fate.
But as soon as I try to change anything, there comes the emotional blackmail.
Oh, I’m right there with you, my friend. Emotional immaturity can and does absolutely make personal growth relfection or change, almost impossible. And a hugely toxic and damaging childhood, for any kids involved.
I’m old now, and I’m going to therapy to try and fix some of the deep deep damage, still there. It’s had a hand in messing up everything in my life, it’s frustrating! The most frustrating thing is, it’s built into the foundations, so you don’t see it till it pops up in terrible ways. It’s like playing whack a mole with a soul infecting virus. I’m focusing really hard on breaking generational traumas being passed down, because they’re like that because their needs weren’t met, also. My biggest fear is becoming them.
For me, it’s a mix of all that (global society and the planet) but also some really difficult health conditions that can only stay the same or get worse.
I do fine day to day, for the most part, because I focus on doing what I can and finding joy where I can. But it doesn’t ultimately make things better for me.